Showing posts with label Christian life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Christian life. Show all posts

Sunday, 7 January 2018

I Worked Hard For This Body!


So, this week was back to the 5.45am wakeup call for the gym.

Really tough after such a nice two weeks of lying in, eating pretty much what I want, putting off the day when I’d have to work hard to lose it again.

The last year has seen me lose a fair bit of weight. The comments, I guess are nice – ‘oh you’re looking good’ or ‘I thought you were looking trim’. But as I’ve got back into some fitness, I’ve realised a subtle undertone to my responses of ‘thank you’ – ‘yes, I have worked hard for this’.

Early mornings.

Deadly spin classes.

Monotonous laps in the pool.

I’ve worked hard.

I deserve it…

The whole weight-loss fitness thing can have its religious overtones of course. I consult my healthy food ‘Bible’. I might ‘confess’ to my wife if I’ve contravened a ‘2’ day (yes the dreaded 5:2 diet). I try to ‘be good’ but don’t always succeed. I even dress the part in my Ron Burgundy sweatbands (that’s a joke btw). 

Why it’s harder than ever to stay fit


So why is it harder to keep fit nowadays? And why might that fuel my pride in my achievements? There’s probably several reasons, but here’s just two.

The first is our sedentary lifestyle. Technology has led to amazing advances in how we work, but has meant that to stay fit we have to put more effort in, often in our ‘spare time’. In years past, manual work and house work without white goods meant more natural fitness from our daily lives. If we ‘looked good’ then big deal, it’s just what we did; it often didn’t mean extra effort or planning.

A second factor is the rise of sugar and fat-laden foods that are so readily available. We’ve gone from consuming roughly 2 kilos of sugar a year at the end of the 1800s to roughly the same in a week (!). Cheaper and quick-to-prepare/order ready meals, ideal for our fast pace of life, add to the problem.


Performance-driven identity


What’s the problem here? Sure, when I am scoffing my face with these rather tasty Bojangles Christmas chocolates (I’ve got to finish them soon, right!?), I feel good – for a while. But then the guilt and self-loathing begins. And the comparisons – I’ll never be as fit as so and so. Unlike my brother, I’ll never be able to give up chocolate!

And when I’m winning in the gym? I feel good – for a while. And then I start comparing myself to others again. This time, my verdict is that I’m more disciplined, committed….better.

There is such a temptation to let my performance in fitness (but not only there, in so many other arenas too) dictate my identity. To determine who I can look down on to make me feel better…accepted…saved even.

Acceptance-driven identity

This is where the message of Christianity is such good news. We are accepted by God, not because of what we do, but what Jesus has done.

As Tim Keller famously said,
The gospel is the good news of gracious acceptance…Christians who trust in Christ for their acceptance with God, rather than in their own moral character, commitment, or performance, are simul iustus et peccator – simultaneously sinful yet accepted. We are more flawed and sinful than we ever dared believe, yet we are more loved and accepted than we ever dared hope at the same time.’

I don’t have to perform for anyone. My self-worth and identity isn’t dependent on how I look, or how hard I’ve worked, or if I’m fitter than someone else.

As Keller finishes his excellent little booklet ‘The Freedom of Self-Forgetfulness’:
Like (the apostle) Paul, we can say, ‘I don’t care what you think. I don’t even care what I think. I only care about what the Lord thinks.’ And he has said, ‘Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus’, and, ‘You are my beloved child in whom I am well pleased’.

My hard work is a response to the ultimate work Jesus did for me in dying on the cross to free me from pride and find a stable identity, accepted in him. As a Christ-follower, when in the gym, and in life, I can let my acceptance drive my performance – not the other way around.





Monday, 1 January 2018

3 Reasons Why So Many Hate The Last Jedi

The Last Jedi is creating waves – critics loved it, but fans are more divided than ever (note major spoiler alerts ahead). People have queued up to criticise the plot holes – Snoke’s early demise after so much hype; the seemingly pointless casino side-story; the strange morphing of Luke from perhaps the only male hero of the series to a crazy, spoilt fool, the poor humour, and so on (see a summary of fans’ biggest complaints). But I think the real reasons run deeper than all of this.

Most mainstream films comprise certain key threads, such as a world cloaked in meaning and purpose within a bigger story of good vs evil, or a hero who saves the day. If you are a Christian you might note that the narrative arc of so many films mirrors that which we see in the Christian worldview - the most epic Story of all, of creation, fall and redemption through Jesus Christ.

Christian or not, all of us have a worldview - a set of beliefs and assumptions that we use when interpreting the world around us. And it is when these fundamental assumptions come into conflict, or are exposed as inconsistent, that things get interesting. 

Here are three worldview themes that The Last Jedi has tampered with, and why they might affect how many have received this film.


1.       History 

Kylo Ren to Rey: ‘Let the past die; kill it if you have to. That’s the only way to become who you were meant to be’ and ‘We are weak when we need others, when we search for meaning in others…’

Yoda to Luke: ‘…look past a pile of old books…read them have you?...Wisdom they held, but nothing that girl Rey already possesses…’

A pervasive theme in The Last Jedi is that the past doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter who Rey’s parents were; it doesn’t matter what Luke did in the past; it doesn’t matter if the ancient Jedi texts are destroyed.

Why?

Because the past can restrict you. If the Force is only for the Jedi, then ‘ordinary mortals’ won’t grasp that they too can harness its power. If we are constrained by our genes, our biology, then we won’t live out our potential to grow beyond the shackles of the past.

Director Rian Johnson has ingeniously tapped into a central doctrine of our culture – that we are defined by what is inside us. Not by our lineage. Not by our ‘externally imposed’ gender identity. Not by oppressive religious structures or ancient texts.

And yet, deep down, there is a conflict at the heart of Star Wars. The build up to the back-story of Rey and of Snoke from The Force Awakens were cast aside with a few brandishes of a lightsaber. The tension in the cast (and now among fans) seems palpable. But why this tension? Because it mirrors our reality. Deep down we know that history does matter. Where we have come from is important. The Last Jedi goes against the Star Wars grain here. A pre-episode VIII Christianity Today article, commenting on how Lucas started with Episode IV rather than I, sums it up:

‘By dropping us into the middle of the action from the start, Lucas made us feel like more must be out there somewhere, languishing in some back closet, the untold story that might have something to do with us…There is something deeply religious about this tradition, this recovering of history—something we tend to forget, but that’s buried in our subconscious.
It seems to me that we live in a world more alive to religious questions than it has been in decades—but also one more stripped of historical memory. I wonder, perhaps, if the Star Wars saga, dropping us into the center of the story and then stringing the story along for decades in both our universe and theirs, reinvigorates in us the deeply religious need for a sense of belonging: not just to a group of the living, but to those who’ve come before us, and will come after.’ 

2.       Purpose

Kylo Ren to Rey – “You come from nothing…you have no place in this story…you are nothing. But not to me!”

The Last Jedi powerfully portrays how mere mortals can be the heroes. Rey’s parents are lowly junk scavengers. But it doesn’t matter - she can be special. She needs to learn to control and then reach out with her feelings to be all she wants to be.

This is again the wisdom of our age – you can do it! You have the power – in your home, phone, or even in your head. There is no such thing as an anointed hero. Just search for the hero inside yourself.

But again, there is tension here, and by the end even The Last Jedi can’t get away from the fact that perhaps Rey is a bit special after all, and that we long for heroes like her who will save the rest of us.

But why? Could it be because we are so rooted in a bigger story as outlined by the Christian worldview? A worldview that says we are somebody - created perfect, but disfigured and misguided. We have become, like Rey, as ‘nothing’ – nothing that would commend us as being worthy of special attention. But we have been called to a special purpose. Like Rey, we haven’t asked for this. But unlike Rey, our purpose isn’t contingent on what we DO, rather than what Jesus has DONE for us. 

3.       Reality

In Revenge of the Sith, one character says, "Only SIths (dark Jedi) deal in absolutes."
In Return of the Jedi, Obi-Wan states, “Many of the truths we cling to depend on our point of view.” Prior to this, he justifies a lie by stating, “What I told you was true, from a certain point of view.”

If the Force is all one, permeating everything, then there is no room for actual evil or actual good. Good and evil are part of the same whole, which means that ethics simply degenerate to relativism –no truth is absolute.

What is interesting is not that this worldview persists in The Last Jedi – it most certainly does – but that the reaction to it seems to be stronger, as if the tension between the two worldviews is at breaking point.

Whilst on board with Finn and Rose, Benicio del Toro’s character DJ explains why he deals with both The Resistance and The First Order - ‘Live free. Don’t join’ he says (and, being consistent, promptly betrays them when the price is right). He further justifies how arms dealers sold to ‘the bad guys and the good guys’, saying that good and evil are ‘made up words’.

It is perhaps the backdrop on which this is painted - the odious inhabitants and casino-lovers of Cantonica – which makes this most jarring. How can you stare such inequality and greed in the eye and say that good and evil are made up words?

The Last Jedi seems to be attempting to reject this Christian worldview. And yet it can’t avoid it, because the franchise’s entire premise rests on the reality of good and evil being real. We root for the oppressed victims - the Resistance fighters – longing for them to triumph over ‘dark side’. We urge Kylo Ren to ‘turn’ from dark to light. From evil to good.

Why does our knowledge of good and evil resonate so deeply within us? Why do we know deep down that DJ is wrong? Could it be because we are made in the image of a transcendent God who is the author of all things good? In a world where truth is relativized, it is in Jesus that we find the reality we are true wired for. 

Lessons from The Matrix

Of course, we see other Christian worldview concepts throughout Star Wars. Self-sacrifice. Hope. The oppressed obtaining final (but as-yet-unseen) vindication against the wicked oppressors.

Even more so, these concepts are nonsensical in the worldview framework offered by pantheism or Buddhism or Western Secular Individualism.
Why sacrifice yourself? 
How do we even define ‘good’ and why should we want to fight for it? 
If all is in ‘balance’, then will evil ever be destroyed?

The reaction to The Last Jedi vividly shows what happens when you play with what is so written on our hearts. We should take a warning from The Matrix trilogy which lost the fulcrum of the ‘chosen Saviour’. Instead it embraced a secular/pantheistic hybrid, with a rapidly deteriorating trilogy ending in real disappointment for so many (I still remember how I felt leaving the cinema after watching Revolutions).

Our place in the Story

As we watch films, we are often being invited to see our place in the story. Are we a world-wearied Luke, or on a journey of self-discovery like Rey? When we find ourselves pondering our place in the story of our lives, perhaps we might echo Rey’s statement when in the cave on Ahch-To: “I need someone to show me my place in all this.”
The gospel tells us that God came to do this very thing. He didn’t write a message about himself in the sky, give individual trances about himself or send down a book of wisdom. He himself came. Jesus walked on this earth so that humans can know God come to be with us. He died a gruesome death by crucifixion, but three days later he physically rose again. And now he says – “I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.”

The Christian worldview gives a consistent, comprehensive and satisfying explanation of where we came from, who we are, and what our place is in this world… But are we shaped and moulded by that worldview? Do we uncritically accept the worldviews presented in what we watch, listen to and think about? As we embrace Star Wars for its incredible story, let’s be prepared to identify and discuss what’s going on beneath the surface, because it might shape our reaction more than we realise.

Perhaps by playing with the formula, The Last Jedi has given us a helping hand in that direction.




Some articles which are excellent on Star Wars and Worldview:









Photo Credit J D Hancock (Flickr)

Wednesday, 3 June 2015

My Spiritual CV Isn't Up To Scratch



You may have seen them – blogs written by the mum with 5 kids, who’s writing a book, doing a Masters and runs a website – oh and she home-schools her kids!

Or the guy whose Twitter feed describes him as a pastor, musician, blogger, writer, husband, father of 3, international speaker…and he still tweets 30 times a day!

When online I catch myself -

Comparing me to him. My wife to her.

And I feel inferior. Because both I and my wife are, I guess, ordinary.

I’m 6 weeks into being off work with a broken back – a great time to do some study, read books…grow my spiritual CV – and yet I’ve felt too lousy to do anything at all.

And I’m aware again that my spiritual CV seems so inadequate.

Do you ever feel like that?
How should we respond when we do?

 

Relax – it’s ok to have a great spiritual CV


I need to remind myself that there is nothing intrinsically wrong with having a great spiritual CV. Look at the Apostle Paul and how God used his background! If you’ve got the gifts, I reckon go for it! I am glad there are high capacity, clever Christians with well-researched blogs (unlike this one!) and who lead big ministries.



Remember – my CV isn’t a measure of my godliness


I am so impressed when people have all these degrees and qualifications, or when they’ve ministered somewhere for 40+ years. But it doesn’t mean they’re more godly. In fact, it means they are more at risk of being the older brother.

Just last week a good friend of mine had a big accident that meant he might not walk again (yes, like me he fell off his bike!). He would say his spiritual CV was in tatters – for months he has been miles from God.

But God is healing him.
Unexpectedly he can walk.
And he feels closer to Jesus than ever!

The work of grace in his life may have a greater impact on his kids than 18 months of consistently being a great dad.
 
Not that this is a pattern to follow, but it shows God’s outrageous grace to sinful people; God’s throwing a party for him.

And you know my natural reaction?
‘Hey God. I’ve been trying to be faithful here. I’m working hard. My CV is growing. Now look, this guy is closer to you than I am. He doesn’t deserve it!’
I guess I need to remember that God measures things differently.

I want to rejoice when God brings the lost son home

For others, their CV just isn’t as impressive-sounding. My wife deals with ones and twos. She is faithful to what God has given her to do. It doesn’t write up great on a twitter feed or description of herself. Only God knows her faithfulness to him. It’s not for me or another to judge.
 
 


Relief - God uses those with holes in their CVs


Most of the Godly people I meet don't have impressive CVs. In fact the bible is full of such characters like Peter, Moses and Abraham – it’s not an excuse, but the reality.

I know a guy with no qualifications to his name. He’s in his 70s. He would have a fairly blank resumé as we know it if he were to write a blog or list his credentials.
 
He boasts quite simply that he knows Jesus.
 

 
How I want to be like that. Even if I have stuff on my spiritual CV, I hope that I can be faithful to what God says.

'But let him who boasts boast in this, that he understands and knows me’
Jeremiah 9:24

I don’t want to fall into the trap of measuring my success or godliness by the length or depth of my spiritual CV. And so if my spiritual CV isn’t up to scratch I don’t have to worry.
 
Just trust Him.

 
John Greenall is a Paediatrician and Head of….

Oh stuff it...

John Greenall wants to boast that he knows Christ

Image credit: Shutterstock

Thursday, 21 May 2015

3 Things I Learnt From My Technology-Free Day



No email, TV, text messaging, social media…for 24 hours.

Most of you will have clicked here to see how long I lasted so I’ll tell you

10 minutes!

I turned over in bed and checked Facebook  - like I was on autopilot – and I couldn't help commenting on a really incendiary link someone had posted.

After that however, apart from a phone call to the hospital (I’m off with a bad back, see my previous post) the day went well.

So what did I learn from my day?

1.       I’m addicted to it


I constantly look at my phone.

Has this guy responded to my comment on Facebook (not yet)?
Has John replied to my email (come on, I sent it 15 minutes ago!)?
What’s the cricket score (depressing but I still want to know)?

I noticed some simple things on my day off:

Our bathroom echoes (I won’t elaborate)

I heard a woodpecker whilst waiting for Oz and Rob (who were being fashionable late to meet me)

I wondered what I did before my phone – perhaps I used those quiet moments to think, to pray, or to enjoy the silence – now I can fill every waking minute with interesting ‘noise’.

Technology addiction is growing fast; indeed it’s thought to be as strong as craving certain drugs and these 9 facts about social media are amazing.

This experiment has shown me that I am as at risk as anyone, and only by pulling back did I realise my vulnerability.

 

2.       I can’t avoid it


Almost everything I do now is related to my computer.

Be it communicating via email, writing a paper, reading the news or my blogs, using Logos bible tools, e-books….. whilst it has its dangers as I mention above, it is the reality of the world I live in.

And it raises the question
 

'How do I live well as a follower of Jesus in the midst of it all?'

How do I respond to the fact that the pace of my life seems to increase in line with the technology I have?

I think this is a profound challenge to get to grips with.
 
Many have written well on its uses e.g. prayer apps, churches and dangers e.g. idolatry and being a Christian in a digital future highlighting how technology is moulding our identity and its link to loneliness and depression amongst many other things.

I’m sure you have more answers than I have – but its answers we need.


3.       I love it


Many of the podcasts I listen to are funny, informative and I can listen when it best suits me.

Communicating with friends all over the world wherever I am be it in a field nearby or in a refugee camp is amazing. I wouldn't have known that the shaking at 2.43 this morning was an earthquake.

And so I want to embrace it.
I want to learn how to use it more effectively.

In my work with CMF I would love to explore using podcasts and videos (by 2018 79% of the online content consumed by 18-21 year olds will be through video or audio – not plain text!).

And as we seek to share the good news of Jesus - whilst nothing replaces real life on life, face to face discipleship - we have more opportunities than ever to get resources into the hands of people who need them most.

On reflection I have come up with 3 resolutions (you can check with me to see if I keep to them):

 

1.       Have one day a week away from technology


That means a rest from social media and emails for one day

2.       Check my emails just twice and day and never on my phone


This means I’m not feeling enslaved to responding immediately and actually will be much more time-efficient


3.       Do my best to be ‘in the present’ when in company, especially my family


This means I am more likely to listen, enjoy and consider the moment, giving my full attention to people rather than sharing it with someone else 2000 miles away.
 
In other words, no social media until I am genuinely not interfering with a face to face relationship.

 

I hope these resolutions aren’t legalistic but encourage me to be a better steward of what God has given me and to rely on Him to guide me in this

I might even try another ‘fasting day’ - and see if I can last longer than 10 minutes!

 
What do you think? Any tips on how to handle technology?


Image: Shutterstock

 

Saturday, 7 February 2015

Will it be me or them?




Medicine seemed so…I don’t know…heroic.

Romantic even.

Treating sick patients, seeing them healed and eternally grateful.
That warm glow of appreciation that I could bask in for weeks. 
Yes there’s lots of exams, but the rewards would make it worth it. 

Right?

And yet time and again patients are ungrateful. And sometimes they don’t get better!

What’s more
It’s hard to be friendly with my colleagues on my 5th night shift
It’s hard to do as my registrar asks me even though he’s really getting on my nerves
It’s hard to go the extra mile and reassure the agitated 86-year-old on Spencer Ward who everyone else is ignoring
It’s hard to treat with dignity the drunk who everyone else on my team belittles and curses, and who belittles and curses me

Outside of work,
It can be hard to get home and put my wife (who is also tired), first
It can be hard to let my children inconvenience me and play ‘My Little Pony’ rather than doing what I want to do on my day off
It can be hard to spend time with a friend who is low because you know what, I just can’t take any more…

Of course there are times to be balanced.

And yet these choices face us several times a day.
My preference or his?
My security, or hers?
My vulnerability, or theirs?
My children’s freedom, or mine?

The simple call of the Christian life is

IT’S ME OR THEM

When God killed the firstborn way back in Egypt, the choice was:
It’s the lamb or the boy.
When Abraham took Isaac to sacrifice him, the choice was:
It’s the ram or the boy.
In the garden of Gethsemane Jesus is in agony. The anticipation of what he was about to do caused his great physical and mental distress.

Will he drink the cup of punishment or will we?
Will it be him, or us?

And Jesus says – ‘Father, Your Will be done’.

‘LET IT BE ME, NOT THEM’.

Let it be me, not John.
Let it be me, not you…

That’s how much he loved us.

When we have grasped the depths of Jesus’ substitutionary sacrifice, we are empowered to do the supernatural - to truly love others.

To say:
Lord, let it be me, not him
Let it be his preference, not mine
Let it be my loss of security, not hers
Let me risk my vulnerability, not theirs
Let me lose my freedom, not my children’s

So my prayer is that I would be ready to lose
my security
my vulnerability
my time
my convenience
my energy
my professional pride
my notion of ‘what’s in it for me’

and instead be who God is calling me to be to them.

I know I fail using my own resources (I’ve tried and it doesn’t work - for long!), and I am called to imitate Christ, who at the cross most profoundly shows us the way; more than that, who enables us as we trust Him and receive His Spirit to be able to say along with him:


"Let it be me, not them"

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,  since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. Colossians 3:23-24


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Friday, 5 September 2014

My newborn baby is sick...and it’s all my fault



In my workplace the word ‘waterbirth’ is usually preceded by an expletive. Paediatricians don’t like them. Too many babies swallow water and end up in incubators.

Of course water can greatly help with pain relief for mum and so on. And yes most midwives sell it as ‘natural’; I was even told I was wrong to doubt the method by our attending midwife – “it’s completely safe”.

But midwives are not there to pick up the pieces when babies get sick. They don’t see and feel the consequences.

In my day job, I do.

And so into hospital we go for our third baby.

Yes a home birth of course was out of the question. But a waterbirth? I was less resolute. I hadn’t even discussed any reservations I may have had with my wife. After all…

Why should I medicalise everything when I’m there to be dad not doc?
Our friends have had waterbirths and it’s all been ok.
My wife would benefit from the pain relief, so I’d be mean to stop her.
The midwives seem so confident.

And so into the water we went.

And then it happened.

‘It’ was born. And ‘it’ was a boy! But he looked bluer than I’d expect. And his breathing was more rattly than I’d anticipate. And as time went on his breathing got faster. And faster. And faster.

My colleague came to see him. She wanted to take him away. I tried to suggest that he was just tired from being passed around. She disagreed. Being more senior than her I was tempted to overrule her. Surely he can’t have an infection!

And then I saw it - the chest x-ray – and it looked pretty horrible.

He’d aspirated some water onto his lungs!

 
I sensed a hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Which didn’t go away while he was being jabbed several times.
Or while his stomach was upset from the antibiotics.

And that’s just here and now. What about the long-term effects on a baby’s lungs from early pneumonia and on his gut from the antibiotic course?

I could have prevented it.

I feel so stupid.

So….guilty.

 

Dealing with Guilt


So how do you deal with guilt?

How do you deal with the feeling that you could have prevented harm to your child?

Well of course my guilt might be false guilt – that actually I haven’t made a mistake and shouldn’t blame myself. And that may be a valid argument here for the reasons I mention above.

But what if the guilt is real? The kind of guilt that so many people live with?

Bad decisions.
Neglect.
A moment of madness when someone strikes their child.
Or a child that has been injured - or even more terribly, died - on their watch.

And you feel like it is all your fault.

How do you live with that?

It can be paralysing. It can haunt people for the rest of their lives.
For some the self-loathing goes so deep that they harm or even commit suicide.

Because they can’t forgive themselves.


For sure, my situation is not anyway near as bad as that. But the issues is still there.

And you know what, it was here that I was reminded of the uniqueness of the Christian faith.
Not a faith that tells me that I’m not responsible for anything, or to blame someone else.
Not a faith that tells me maybe it was ‘fate’ that I cannot control.
Not a faith that says that overall I’m a good person and even good people make mistakes.

No.
 
This is a faith that tells me that there is a supreme being – God - who is in control of every event in my life, both good and bad.
That nothing that happens couldn’t have been prevented by Him.
That He has a purpose even in the suffering.
A God who has been making my baby for 9 months and cares for Him more than I do.

And God’s word, the Bible, tells me that I am guilty as charged on all counts.
I don’t love God as I should.
I try and rule my own life.
I try to save myself.
And I make mistake after mistake after mistake.

The good news is that I can forgive myself, because God has forgiven me.
The good news is that on the cross Jesus died for every wrong I’ve ever committed.
I can be free of guilt, because He who was not guilty became guilty for me so that I can be acquitted of all charges and live a free life.

You know what? As I thought about this, as I prayed, I can say for sure that the feelings of guilt have gone. For someone like me who finds it hard to get out of negative thought cycles this is amazing and I thank God for that.

Well so far there’s a happy ending. He’s getting better now. And I can’t wait for him to be home soon.

Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience. (Hebrews 10: 22)


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